skippity doo dahh

sometimes i just wish that i could jump ahead to where i want to be in life. like with whoever my husband will be, raising the family i want, the job i'll be at for most of my life...

i'm not really a big party-goer. i mean, i tried the whole stay out late thing, do something every night sorta deal...and don't get me wrong, i did enjoy the company (for the most part..crackbabywhore&tabs..coughcough) but it was so exhausting! it made me realize i'm somewhat of an old fart and would much rather just spend a quiet night at home cuddled up on the couch watching a movie.

there are a few options i've made up in my mind that would be acceptable options for the rest of my life. but what throws everything off is just the waiting and uncertainty and stability of what i have now, and what i could potentially have. i guess i just hate not knowing. it sucks knowing that the life i want isn't what i have now, and waiting for what i want is taking too long. i'm so impatient :)

watching shows like say yes to the dress and teen mom and other little familia shows just make that longing for my 'life' to get here sooner. and i know that once i get an idea in my head, build up everything around it....i really want it and do everything to make it happen.

sooo basically i feel like i'm just ready. as young as i may be, i know what i want. mister right and everything else just sorta need to hurry up :)

just a spoon full of sugar...

i love my job. i enjoy being around the people i work with. sometimes though, no matter how much you love what you're doing or who you're with...you can just be tired. that's what i am. i'm just exhausted. i've worked five 8 hour days, one 8.5 hour day, and a 10 hour day in a row. with the addition of school and trying to find the energy to make something to eat 3 times a day. what about having a social life? hah! what is this life you speak of? when i get home i think damn...

i need a beer.

tomorrow or i guess i should say 'today' is my day off. i need to get a ton of things done.
but i will probably end up doing nothing.

fabulous.